Mr Emotionless

i'm sry but i still love her

2010-02-18T05:35:00.004+08:00

back to blogging =] .. i noe i noe i very long never blog lols so now come back blog awhile =] ... hmm valentines day went to cousins house pai nian den ltr go home lols .. hahas ok la have to admit i ownself choose to celebrate valentines alone but yea i dont think i regretted bah ... hmm on cianyuh birthday i went to meet her awhile but i forgot its her birthday until the next day den realise =x SRY !! lucky she never angry hahas .. wanted to give her a surprise on friday but end up she had to go back malaysia so too bad ... anw my blackshot compy is coming soon =( nid to train up more >.< hmm this few days still the same bah tiff text me i free i reply nt free den dont reply =-= idk why she can still stand me .. i am such a bad person .. hais tiff i noe u will read this .. u can find a better person den me tat can take care of u so dont because of me keep doing foolish things .. i am nt worth it .. + i think let us leave each other alone for a period of time .. seriously sometimes is just tat u keep texting me even when i never reply u tat makes me nt wanna reply u .. and yea maybe your right i cant forget about her .. shes still in my heart but just i dont show it out ..but ur wrong about 1 thing .. i did love u for awhile .. sry .. n i can tell u the truth ... i broke up with u its nt cause of tat incident is just cause she haven left my heart n ur just not the person tat can replace her .. i am sry ... whatever it is .. i wish u goodluck in all the things u do n have a safe trip to where.ever u are going for ur modelling .. will post again when i am free .. bye ppl

2010-01-21T02:07:00.002+08:00

back to post again ... broke up with tiffany cause of certain reasons i wont say here ... hmm so far life has been boring =( ... everyday wake up .. on com ... eat.. slp ... nth else .. bored right!!! hais suddenly rather have school but school still sucks ... on the 14th i went ice skating with frens den went to pasta mania to eat afterwards bowling =D met some new fren's cris,irina,calvin ( during vivo trip ), ben goin out with them quite fun =D enjoyed myself but cris broke her finger nail during bowling ( ouch ) lols den later trainned home .. day as per usual until the 16th went out at night for dinner with daryl n cris lols den ltr slack at mac for ice cream =D chatted awhile den send cris home .. den met tgt for ice cream again on the next day 19th went marina square for soul garden hahas eat until dam full! =( but still cant gain weight !! OMG FATS COME TO ME PLZ =( i wan train all of u to muscles >.< ppl are complaining i am getting skinner n skinner everyday OMG!! T.T ... trainned home from marina square that time in mrt talked about an old man's hair end up get scolded >.< after that incident i felt weird =x suddenly just dont feel myself ... argh whatever den cris turned moodless .. daryl also felt the same way so odd =-= hmm ytd was kuang birthday ... tml is daryl's birthday all so fast turn 18 =( i still 17 omg!! wait for me marh LOL! =x so ya thats wad happen so far in january! o ya o ya i wan buy SKATES!!! =DDDD LOL! k shall get them next month =D

2010-01-07T20:05:00.002+08:00

blogging time~! delay~ed for so long finally blogging back again =x hmm sch starts for those poor boys & girls LOL! finally after 5 years dont need wake up so early to get up for sch! woo~ ! hahas ok lah dont so bad >.< hmm pass few days alot of things happened bah .. everytime i go out me n baby always tend to argue & fight .. hais i dont want that i noe baby i always go out with girls but there's also guy's baby! dont anyhow think uh i told u b4 marh i already have u & its already enuff =x ytd was iris birthday went to marina square to celebrate everything was fine until again i argue~ed with baby cause of certain matters >.< hais totally no mood but i noe baby is worried about me but baby have some faith in me have some faith in yourself alright? >.< hmm 4 more days to O's result ... hmm this decide the fate of mine =x baby i noe wad ur hoping & i am hoping it wont happen too >.< ... dunno wad to blog already but just baby we'll last alright? =] i love u <3

2009-12-27T20:13:00.002+08:00

back to blogging >.< ... this 2 days nth much happen so nth to write about =x just post for fun hahas ... hmmm BABY!! 5 more days to a new year ur sch re-opening still dont wan do ur homework arh! hahas =x anw ytd night had fun with talking with baby >.< hahas .. hmm nth to write already >.< ltr den think of more to write hahas i love u baby <3

2009-12-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

back 2 blogging .. merry xmas everyone =] ytd went drinking with reynold,joanna,alex at koven till 1+ 2 .. had fun playing with the sprays >.< run around then ltr drink martel =D didnt finish this time >.< .. anw went to different pub this time 1 of the group dam noisy so didnt really got into the mood of drinking end up drink half the bottle den go already ... walked to koven passed den cabbed home casue jo wanna walk awhile ... walked pass her ex house ytd didnt know she stayed so near the place .. can see jo was sad but fed up cause her parents keep pestering her to go home ... sent jo home her dad was fed up with her .. oks den later walked home ... abit drunk >.< reach home actually suppose to shower den slp end up too sleepy den fall a slp on the sofa =x ... end up woke up at 10 go back rm to slp >.< lols today wake up sms baby she didnt reply until 1 hour ltr at tat time was already 3 know she have modelling until 8 >.< so ya .. didnt text her at all =( anw woke up with a big headache until now also haven ok >.< hais .. anw due to short time & massive headache i will stop here already merry xmas everyone once again i love u baby <3 sry today blog so little abit cranky =x

ur my everything <3

2009-12-22T18:52:00.001+08:00

back to blogging ... weird suddenly felt like blogging =-= ytd went out with rydah guild ppl to vivo ... woke up at 1 ( late ) lols den ltr rush go shower prepare to den meet them =-= end up all small kids >.< watched avatar with them lols ... kinda nice =] & i almost lost my phone cause of my stupid habit =x .. after the show they head to the arcade lols totally bored.. until 6 + cheryl veron melvin came den went to mac to eat & slack lols 7+ kaijie reach LOL all come later & later after eatting we head back to vivo roof to slack lols play abit of true or dare den later small kids had to go home so left me james kai jie cheryl veron & melvin ... bored we went to the arcade again LOL after around 9+ jerome they all came =-= we was like u might as well dont come 9+ come vivo do wad sia LOL end up slack awhile den mrt-ed home .. otw home called baby to chat <3 thx for accompanying me =D den when reached hougang i hangged cause saw jo den later we chat slack awhile went ntuc buy cup noodle =D den headed home lols .. reached home called baby fix hot water for cup noodle =D den later web cam with baby till around 12+ i think >.> den baby went to slp i went to shower den slp LOL =x boring but end up okok day =x anw just found out tat baby veri easily jealous >.< lols dunno why i like it =x weird right ~ guess its the only way i know that she still cares bah? i think ... argh nvms ... anw today woke up again around 1 >.< waa beginning to be a pig sia eat slp play ( dialy event ) LOL! die cannot worst thing is i never gain weight .... stupid body absorb the food so fast for wad ! =x today no mood for rydah just plain sian =( actually just wanted to talk to baby on the phone but she rather rydah so end up never even accompany her >.< hais feeling weird like something bad will happen .. nah dont think so much =D ... anw i ltr den blog somemore bah see hw =x ... anw baby i love u <3

edit : went out just now .. meet jo n patricia at blk 236 .... talked alot of nonsense !! hahas today dam suay sia =x help both of them find excuse to change slipper cause i help them break it LOL!! >.< den chatted about whats going on this few days & stuff like tat .. still haven plan for 24 >.< die liao later no plans = boring >.< lols but end of the day wanna go drinking woo~!! cough die me LOL! >.< den ltr on my way home tat time text baby >.< den know that shes moody .. i really wanna know wants wrong but she always say nvms >.< i am really worried about her everytime something happen she will keep saying nvms but yea the fact is theres something .. hais baby plz i am here i am ur listening ear plz just tell me when ever ur sad wad happen let me try to cheer u up & be there for u >.< i am ur boi i will always be .. u know that >.< i noe ur jealous tat i always hang out with girls .. baby ur my only 1 now ur already in my heart no 1 can take over ur place right now kae? plz trust & have some confidence in me? i wont let u down >.< i love u baby alright? plz know this ur my everything

baby ur my life <3

2009-12-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

back to blogging =x ... sry quite lazy to blog this few days >.< hmm lets start withhhhhhh grat~ing baby next year goin up to sec 5 =] hahas .. anw alot of things happened this few days bah? lols like ... i finally went for a job interview but i dun like >.< hahas & i met jerome lols .. me & baby kinda broke & patch cause of a misunderstanding =x ... okay lets start with job interview >.< hmm $6 per hour sounds not bad .. quite slack also sound not bad =x but sadly nid to re-dye my hair + cut =( so not working already >.< lols hmm den met jerome at somerset .. we joked alot had some laughed den later went off to lan cause my fren's wanna go >.< during lan baby sms-ed me and asked for a break suddenly ... in my heart it teared apart a word sure was all i replied =( ... it was because baby thought tat lan was more impt then her which is absolutly not true >.< baby ur everything to me now kae? tats for wednesday =x den thrusday was a boring normal day at home with baby in rydah >.< hmm den ltr jo came my house & slack lols den i intro her to baby hahas & OMG >.< baby say her voice more man den mine~ =x die already turning more & more gay =x LOL!!!! on tat day went to eat dinner with jo had crabs =DDD muahahahahahs LOL den after tat slack awhile den bussed home =x den came friday >.< ''N'' level results day =x went out tat day thought can celebrate for our fren who took ''n'' lvl twice =x end up he again fail by 1 point =-= lucky on tat day was 1 more friends birthday so nth to be sad about =D went out slack celebrate den later went drinking woooo~~~ lols open 1 bottle absolute vodka >.< didnt finish it ... den must go thr another day to finish it hahas drank until 2+ goin to 3 we sang alot our hearts out cause bron was sad about his results jo was sad about her girl so they both sang & sang & sang >.< hahas after dat decided to walk home =x i was the last to reach home cause send all of them home lols but suay jo's mum lock the door so she couldn't enter so wait with her until 7+ LOL went for breakfast den later her bro called say the door open already den she went home >.< finally 7+ home swt home =D showered shagged den sleep =x

2009-12-14T22:23:00.001+08:00

back to blogging =x... woke up at 1pm today >.< lols overslept received 14 sms-s & 6 miss call LOL cause suppose to meet the buyer at 1 .. ok today wake up sms baby hmm den went to shower den head to amk .. anw funny but happiest thing today happened =x baby asked me to be her boyfriend hahas >.< so weird hahas end up i asked her instead lols its more natural bah hahas =x cabbed down to amk to collect money from the buyer $130 =DDD hahas den ltr cabbed down to j8 meet justin hahas after tat wanted to go dhobby ghout but in the end went back koven to play pool >.< was sms~ing baby the whole time around 5 baby really take it already den i told my fren i go first =x den bussed home asap =DD lucky bus came just nice when i reach the bus stop muahahahas den in the bus suddenly thought of a question >.< so texted baby asked her ''baby do u mind ppl who smoke?'' =x she replied '' why? do i smoke? '' i didnt want to lie to her so i told her i was a social smoker who knows she replied she hated smokers & we almost broke up because of that >< baby i promise u i wont smoke kae? i dont wanna lose u ... trust me k? sry baby today online rydah late cause of the match >.< no more next time already i promise =D u from first in everything k? baby so cute today >.< say wan strip for me to make me nose bleed for the first time hahas stupid baby =x i wont nose bleed so easily 1 k! hahas baby dun do things u dont like kae? i dont wanna see u sad or cry =x i want baby to smile everyday hmm idk wad to write ler !! >.< lols shall think of somemore later =D baby my blog will be full of u from today onwards dun worry !!

Me ? O.o ?

2009-12-14T02:51:00.004+08:00

Jeremy asked me to post how I feel to be with him .
Feel
- Naughty
- Stupid
- Pleased
- Happy
- Glad
- Angry ( only at night )
Haix . He will always be mye sillyboy <3
Anyways , this is me <3

iie noe quite small .
Anyways . My Facebook : http://facebook.com/ilovestiffany

girl i'm nth without u ~

2009-12-14T00:10:00.004+08:00

hmm back to blogging wooo~ faster celebrate open all the drinks u have =D LOL ok ... from here on i shall intro u all to a new girl i noe =] hahas shes fat shes disgusting shes everything i didnt ask fer hahas no lah kidding LOL shes the cutest & hottest girl tat i know for like 1 week? hahas her name is tiffany =D and ya from here on i think i shall write about her bah? lols =DD .. to tell u the truth yes i am jio~ing her now =x interested to see hw she look like uh hahas will show u all later =D .. anw ya the whole week with her was fun but there's high & low's between us =x hmmm today first day writing about her dunno wad to write ... hahas so bear with the nag >.< lols o ya shes 16 & shes a model hahas =D hmm today she asked the same question as wad someone once asked me ''why do u love me'' lols wonder it is a hard or easy question =x but ya my answer was still baby loving u doesn't need to have a reason i just love u for who u are =] ... dunno wad to blog already shall blog tml =D later i will upload her pic hahas my first time uploading pic's into blog so need to learn !! ahahas

edited : tiffany said nt long enuff want longer lols ... just had a ''heart to heart'' convo with her on msn bah? LOL ok >.> found out this few days we keep making each other angry on purpose >.< us ="x">.< lala whatever la but everything is cleared already bah =x baby i dont wan to see ur cry already k? i wont stay angry with u long no matter what you've done kae? i promise <3 .. since u posted hw u feel the few days you've known me why nt let me do it too hahas ... baby u made me feel

happy?
blessed?
curious?
shy?
fucked up ( at night )
but lastly
u made me love u >.<

emotions getting over me

2009-10-31T03:38:00.004+08:00

back to blogging again ... bet the same ppl who keeps asking me to blog is happy i guess? hahas anw yea day as per normal .. o ya previous post i mention about a girl tat i wanna noe right? hahas i finally know her!! hahas her attitude is super cute n is super childish hahas .. fun to talk to .. esp to disturb hahas n her name is CELESTE TAN the ''bytch'' LOL! .. anw maths n english o lvl paper is down =D i can burn them away WOO~ =D chem n geo is coming so is physics n ss need to buck up my geo n ss =( read abit bah since that cute ''bytch'' like combine humans =x today went to ave 8 mac to study =x studied abit den gossip with kaung all the way ahahas =x ... wonder why tis few days get easily jealous over small matters =-= ... hmm should not care so much let things go naturally bah =D hahas ... chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi LOL! not bad hor my chinese hahas >.< anw having thoughts of deleting tis blog but after much thinking i decide i wont so yea u all may stay tune bah hahas i will blog again soon =DD bye ppl
o ya GRATZ CY N CELES FOR PROMOTING UP TOO SEC 4 =DD U BOTH JY ARH!

im just a playboy

2009-10-19T03:18:00.002+08:00

wooooooo~ so long never blog already LOL! 3 more days to the start of O levels n i just started my revision HAHAS! hmm alot of things happen from the period i stopped blogging until now? hahas ppl say i changed back too my old self others say i changed for the better i dont know? lols ... who cares anyway? hahas lost interest in studying but i have too cause i promise my aunty i would pass my O's or else bye bye sg ( i guess ) .. hmm deciding wheather should i go out and study anot =x hmm i guess i should bah or else i wont study already lols ... hmm anw had fun sending her home on sat had alot of laughs hahas her bright eyes n her beautiful smile just makes my day brighter hahas although i dont really know her but i really wish 2? hahas yea i think i'll stop here at least i did update hahas =]

:D happy brthday ~

2009-08-23T22:39:00.008+08:00

Alrights ~
Cianyuh is here to post again :P

Got miss wor marhhs ? ;x

LOL , okokays , dhun crap lerhhs x.x

I'm here to wish Chee ~ :D

Happy Birthday Jeremy ~ x3 [ 230809 ]
`Pass your O with flying colours :D
`Stay cute & idiotic ;x
`Stay happy ^^
`Continue to miss cianyuh (:
`may all your wishes come true .

; lovelove

♥ C.

nth can change th fact =]

2009-08-10T23:53:00.004+08:00

its been long since i have blogged + someone keep asking me to blog so sure time to blog lols.. hmm past few days keep goin out didnt even study even after promising myself to study after watching th show GI Joe =x .. hmm friday was a fucking boring day in sch .. well then right after tat headed to hougang mall for lunch... due to some incidents we end up eating pastamania =-= .. anw after tat headed to library to slack .. after tat arcade awhile den home to change n out i go again =-= ... hmm friday managed to meet dorothy or should i say we met each other luckly? lols hmm den watched GI Joe at 12.45 th show was nice alot of actions but den while waiting for th show was dam boring lols stuck at vivo doin nth =.= anw sat did totally nth but slp n com cause reynold n daryl tonn-ed at my house .. den came sunday .. well sunday was basically th cheapest outing in my whole life with frens i guess lols ... went all th way to esplade to watch fireworks but in the end lazy to squeeze with th crowd so end up went to eat ''just noodles'' first time eating thr .. th food was alright + there are free re-fills for drinks n free-fro ice-cream!!! lols but i didnt take th ice-cream hahas spent $6.50 thr lols den ltr dunno whr to go ... end up me n rey mrt down to vivo to really meet dorothy n her frens lols end up also didnt do much cause they didnt know where to go ... end up we drag till 12 den bus-ed home =-= first time i tell a person ''dun nid u pay whr u wanna go?'' n the person still can decide for veri long and end up say go home lols ... so end up 1hour travel time from vivo to hougang =-= bored like fk ... + thr's ppl making out in th bus!! .. china ppl!!! =-= ... today did nth bah? go out at 11 eat dim sum at marina square then shop around with family ... end up playing bowling with my aunty totally own her ass hahas =] den after tat eat shaba shaba japanese steamboat lols =] quite nice hahas 19.90 per person eat all u can!! lols =D den ltr cabbed home =]
well nth much already bah?
anw ps ppl sometimes u sms me i never reply back cause my phone got problem =(
and dawn dun nid to always thank me about tat incident lols =] its nth ...

dawn's un-glam LOL!

2009-08-02T15:19:00.001+08:00

back to update u all! =D lols
hmm after 2 days of nt goin to sch i went to sch on friday lols cause too bored at home LOL! hmm after sch headed home to shower n out to compass point lols ... finally my family have a bright idea n decided to install air-con in my room hahas!! woho air-con room! hmm saturday was the most wasted day i ever have lols watched the ghost of my ex-girlfriend past th show was dam nice lols den later dota the whole day with reynold hahas anw thx dawn!! for ur un-glam pic! hahas xd ok lah nt tat ugly =X u must really take care of urself lei!!!!! =( hmm o ya tell u all something =x on sat morning joanne call me ask on sunday wanna go k-box anot end up i asked her huh today nt sunday meh LOL! =x she laughed like mad ... so ps lah =-= kk nvms today wake up do nth again lols msg-ed dawn awhile den later use com lols after that watch monster vs alien was dam funny laughed like a mad guy =x lols ... maybe later den update alittle bah byes

kk back to blogging again =D
hmm did nth for th whole day =( lols audi-ed awhile den later went out to eat dinner with reynold n his mum at compass point lols.. whole day didnt receive any calls from th noisiest person in my contact list lols but i kinda miss her though =x hahas hmm k lah k lah decided tml go get th happy 128 for her
lols =x dunno wad to blog ler ..
till next time =D nites

whatever u like ~

2009-07-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

ppl i am here to blog again lols
thx for th ppl who gave comments about my previous post via real life , msn n in th tag box =] kk anw blogging time hahas
hmm tis few days happen quite alot of things? lols hmm firstly went to shu hui's birthday party lols sry didnt get u a present cause i didnt know what u wanted so i owe u any present u request! hahas hmm then after that went to reynold house to sleep over lols next morning wait for him to wake up .. shower n get change then headed over to my house to do the same n off to bugis iluma hahas went thr to catch stuff toys as our god mother (anisha) birthday is th next day hahas caught 1 turtle n 1 monkey hahas the monkey is super CUTE! lols after catching we went to catch our movie public enemy =] was a very nice show but th ending abit disappointing =( after that cabbed home! missed my bed hahas .. k then came sunday did nth cause in the end ain cant go so me n reynold didnt head down to east coast to celebrate anisha birthday =( felt so bad so long never see her >< then totally did nth for sunday expect went out to eat dinner with family hahas .. great school again =-= wee~ today went sch dam unlucky got caught alot of times by diffrent teachers lols but didnt cared ( used to it alr ) LOL! hmm slept abit den slacked all th way till sch ended lols headed down to kfc .. chat ate slacked then home swt home =D
thats about all for th past few days bah

now there are things that i wanna say
firstly to cian yuh .. u wan be bad is up 2 u .. just dun do things afterwards regret about doing it .. like i smsed u saying .. doin something u don't like n regretting it is stupid .. so don't be stupid .. thats all i can say if u still wanna do it then yea its already ur problem ..

secondly n ( most importantly ) .. tis is specially for dorothy aka --HS-MISSY- dui bu qi!! i forgotten about our anniversary in audi!! than that day totally never online >< really sry !!! i wont forget ler! 260609 we cpled! i will never forget the date ler ! forgive wo hao marh >< as u know i veri sotong de marh! =X

PPL!

2009-07-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

back to blogging ~ gt nth to blog much anw lols

PPL who know's th link to my blog n know's me
here's a question
wad do u think of me n am i really that bad as a fren that i don't put myself in ur shoes n think b4 i do things!

tag it in my tag box or chat to me in msn to tell me thx ! i really wanna know ~

disappointed n i guess i don't know u at all

2009-07-19T14:00:00.004+08:00

back to blogging~ ytd went out with joanna joanne reynold kuang to vivo actually wanted to watch th huanting in blah blah blah but no seats den joanna didnt wanna watch harry potter so we end up slacking at vivo till around 3+ lols at vivo we went to eat at swensens =D but super ex lols =X th bake rice is like super big =-= we over ordered LOL so end up we coulded finish th food =X aniway after tat we headed to orchard cenileisure to watch harry potter while joanna went back koven look for .... =] lols n OMG i dressed up as a nerd from vivo all th way home =X hahas thx joanna for th spec's to make me look nerdy! =x went to play pool with joanne kuang n reynold lols anw harry potter was dam nice =X those we say not nice .. u all dunno hw to watch movie's!!! =x lols .. ok tat was all for me ytd .. now about something tat is in my heart during the whole time ytd .. someone once told me tat he/she hate's ppl smoking n is totally hate those kind .. but ytd i received 1 msg saying ''can teach me hw 2 smoke'' i was totally shocked by tat msg .. nvms at night during pool i smsed her asking why did he/she want to smoke when he/she hate ppl who smoke to th core .. but all he/she replied me was a nth n he/she had a fever n it was like 39.9 .. so tell me ppl why should i bother caring about him/her anymore when as a friend as a ''baby'' she don't wanna tell me wat happen .. hais i really don't know wad are u thinking or wad do u want .. really i dont know i guess i never did even from th start.. i am sry .. plz stop calling me ur baby already i am not .. put it tis way i don't deserve to be ur baby ... so plz o plz stop .. n plz take care of urself ... if u want to be as stubborn as ever n keep playing audi even though ur nt feeling well n lie about it saying u not playing den so be it.. i gt nth to say tat will change ur mind .. hope u get better soon bah i wont care about u after today already ...

ps: thx for even bothering to lie to me

a new start a new beginning

2009-07-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

alright since she edited my blog abit y nt really edit it completely .. lols changed pic changed link ... wanted to change skin but super duper lazy so dun wan make so much changes .. hmm life as per normal tis few days ... addicted to catching soft toy n goin to playgrounds to slack now =-= omg getting more n more childish .. lols who cares hahas .. anw losing motivation to study ... hais but dun worry i will still chiong for my O's th last yr already finish it den bye yyss =] .. hmm about myself? memories of her come's n go? lols used to it already bah? cant figure out wad she really wants but friends we still are.. so ya i am goin to cherish our friendship bah lols .. although we're still nt talking to each other in real life but yea its back to the same as last time i guess? talk through sms~es n msn .. how stupid .. but yea maybe its just where we can really talk i guess.. anw take care of urself .. ur temp is running high tis few days .. if u really nt feeling well go see a doctor i dun wan to see u fainting in school ...

YOYOYO , its me ! :X

2009-07-15T06:53:00.000+08:00

LOLL , alrights.
chamnged th photo . :D
WOOOTS*
this is my xin xue , hard work okokays ?!
HAHAS , LOVE TH PICTURE ;X
Jeremy-Fcuk-Thy-Wall . x3
erhmmm .. i also dhun know what to say uhs .
just suddenly feel like disturbing here .
okokays , i am crapping alot now .
CRAB , CHILLI CRAB !
dhats all barhhs .
MISS ME , i will be back ! :D
;misses.

`C,ianyuh.♥
;loveloves.

drinking spree~

2009-07-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

back to blogging ... was drinking th past 3 days =X hmm friday went to t1 to meet melody n her fren lols den after tat me rey n huai ping went walking around tamp mall till 7+ den bussed down to puggol park to eat dinner after tat went my house to ton den we drank till 4? hahas joanna drink till her face went red hahas but she stayed awhile onli =( .. anw was fun hahas cause we sabo rey to drink alot trying to make him drunk ahahas den ltr slept awhile .. sat went to rey house around 11 to help him move furniture hahas went to buy the bottle of blackcurrent vodka although its 8% it made me go high wth =-= ... den later today drink abit again lols wtf right >< hahas i know i shouldn't dink so much but idk why i just didnt care bah lols .. hmm about her.. on sat she smsed me asking me to teach her hw to make friendship band .. sry .. u wan u learn from other ppl bah i am sry really sry .. n she say shes making for me .. its nt worth it .. dun bother .. thx for th effort i guess.. but don't thx .. anw cheer up .. i know u asked again n u did nt get th answer u were looking for but cheer up .. o ya n sry i drank n broke our promise ..

cold shoulders n a broken heart

2009-07-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

back to blogging .. finally bother to add a tag box for her to tag in .. anw have moved on already i guess .. still single though =] tis few days like dam cold to her .. i also dunno y ... i know soon she'll notice tat .. but i cant help it i really dun know y i am treating her with tis kind of attitude i really don't i am really sry i think its th most i can say to her bah ... anw stop thinking tat i have a target to go fer or i like another girl .. although i told u i have moved on but pieces of memories of us is still thr n maybe i will stay single for a period of time bah so stop asking me n who tgt now .. n yes i still have abit of feelings for u .. but yea its fading i think for u its a good thing i guess lols idk .. saw u tis few days, u looked more n more pale everyday.. idk wad u doin or wad r u thinking but nvms bah i shouldn't care so much anw .. just a reminder .. dun lie to ur love ones cause u will one day regret wad u did .. don't know y now everywhere i go i will still see her =.= but ya i am disappearing from her life soon bah .. o ya like i said i will die faster den u =] hope tat day really comes ~

分手之后

2009-07-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

back to blogging again ... tis few days mood's goin up n down .. hmm everytime is see her online i just want to talk to her but i got nth to say .. when i see her i just wan to go to her n just talk but idk why i just didnt .. nt even a hi .. lols maybe i just dunno wad i am thinking bah .. i am sry .. i always nid u to make th first move .. its just u tat took my courage away just like tat .. n i have no idea y .. but whenever i see u i just miss th times .. i just wan to show u back th care n concern but i cant ... sometimes i still think of u .. but i have moved on like u bah .. always looking forward for u too online but whenever u online i have nth to say to u .. but when ur offline i just miss u .. lols funny uh .. hahas having th thought of goin mia lols think about it first bah~

its been a long tyme ~

2009-07-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

i am sry its been a long tyme since i blogged .. hmm hw to start? 1st things 1st we lost our bossaball competition =( ... made quite alot of mistakes sad sad T.T but had fun though =X i think .. lols .. hmm lets makes things short? i've slowly letten go of her .. stopped counting th dates already after that day .. th last present tat i gave her was a crystal ball from precious moments n promised her tat will be th last time i would give her a present i guess? =-= after tat day i just forced myself to forget her bah.. back to sch.. no more holidays sobs hmm saw her afew times but like she said maybe we're back to last time bah i dun talk to her n she dun talk to me? lols idk ... i cant believe i can just walk pass her like shes just someone idk but i just did .. guess it really hurts her bah ... anw sry ytd u said hi n i didnt reply as i didnt hear u .. hmm anw anw i told her tis .. i wont talk to u first unless u talk to me .. n i think i am serious about it bah =x .. saw her today when i was having th competition .. was dam nervous at first but when i saw her i was more nervous hahas but claim-ed down veri soon lols .. th first game was quite relax~ing but th 2nd game was abit pressured i guess .. quite disappointed but den was fine after awhile ... looking at her really brings back alot of memories .. saw her talking to huai ping though =X wondering wad they talking about ... hmm idk n nvms bah ... anw read her blog a few times found out tis few days she had alot of problems bah? asked her wad happen but she didnt wanna tell so its okay bah .. i didnt wanna ask further so i just didnt continue .. hope her problems will just fly away soon bah .. idk wad to say ler sry ... maybe tml den blog again bah just maybe ..

i dun understand u well enough ...

2009-06-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

25th day w/o her ... went to sentosa today for th 98.7fm party lols .. had alot of fun with kuang n alex's dance group i guess hahas .. although th party wasn't tat great lols but still we found a spot to sit down as a group n play some stupid games to entertain ourselfs LOL! we played some game called 007 bang LOLS then later we took pictures!! hahas .. n o ya omg .. th funniest part was when we're all in th mrt goin home lols ... one of their dance partner lost her hat then she went shouting fcuk fcuk fcuk LOL!! was dam cute ... hahas !! o ya den later 1 of them her surname was bang lols so she went saying '' hey alex! if u keep calling me bang i will ''bang'' u LOL!! we all burst out of laughter hahas she was over thr staring at us because she didnt noe wad was th meaning ahahahas anw had alot of laughs n fun ~ =] dun mind goin out with them i guess hahas .. anw she misses her real dad alot ... n today's father's day idk what to do to cheer her up .. but i suggested her to maybe call her real dad tml too wish him happy father's day i guess? although i don't know her real dad nor seen him b4 but i guess his quite a good guy bah? otherwise she wont miss him so much i guess =( i think at least better den her step dad? lols idk ... well at least she got a father to celebrate with lols .. wonder what isit like to celebrate father's day with ur real or step father hahas ... dun care bah =] anw happy father's day to everyone ... n special wishes to her real dad bah .. hope he wont spend father's day alone n will stay safe =] ~ but i think it would really make his day if he hear her say happy father's day to him .. silly girl cheer up alright <3 .. i already prepared tissue fer u hahas because i noe tml if u call ur real dad u sure would cry =x .. idk wad to blog ler lols .. nites baby ng <3 swt dreams goodnites .. iloveyou..

baby loving u doesn't need to have a reason

2009-06-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

24th day w/o her ... ytd night something weird happen she sms-ed my to vent her anger out i guess? lols she sms-ed I'M SICK OB IT . I DHUN HAVE TH LOOKS . I DHUN HAVE TH FIGURE . I AM JUST A BYTCHHH !! WHY DO YOU GUYS LIKE ME ? WHY !!?! .. at first didnt noe wad happen replied huh ? followed by wad happen? because i know something wasn't right ... but she didnt reply so i waited till quite late around 2+ den decided to sms her hw i feel .. baby just to tell u loving someone dun need to have a reason if u love th person means u love him/her .. there is no why fer all tis .. furthermore if a relationship depends on hw pretty or cute or handsome ur partner is den th relationship wont last .. or its nt even called a relationship at all ... anw she replied tell me she rejected andy n her fren darryl went crazy trying to sucide cause ob her .. n she blames everything on herself ... at first i should be happy tat she rejectted andy i really should but feeling tat she felt sad i cant even smile .. i was just plan worried tat she would brk down anytime again ... i know tat she hates brk~ing downs she afraid ob it ... anw less den 3 replies she told me she wanna go slp den .. yea we just stopped sms~ing den morning wake up ... she sms~ed me actually wanted me to help her buy cash but dunno why end up nvms so ya ... glad tat she felt normal again? but i felt tat shes still unhappy but she didnt reply my sms so nvms bah .. think tat she would be alright after playing audi i guess? her frens are all there to comfort her .. baby i know ur always acting strong .. but on th inside ur nt .. ur just afraid too show it out ... nvms anw baby if u need someone to talk to i'll be here waiting fer ur call .. if u dun wanna call den blog out on my blog if u wan .. i will reply in th blog just post out hw u feel .. i'll still continue to wait .. dun ask why because th reason is veri obvious ... iloveyou ~

is letting go an option? isit th onli way i can go?

2009-06-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

22th day w/o her .. hmmm sry didnt blog fer veri long .. past few days happen quite alot of things? went out with her 2 times tis week .. just accompany her went to buy things n collect stocks bah .. idk y i still do all tis but i just want to .. hais anw i should really give up n let go ler bah .. she already moved on although she says she wont have another stead fer now but her heart has been taken away ler n i cant do anything about it... at first i tot i can woo u back but now i think i cant already ... ur heart has already been taken .. feeling as though i have lost everything i have .. i still regret nt cherishing u n letting u go in th past .. i hope i can turn back th time n treat u much better but i cant .. i noe ur gonna read tis but yea tis is hw i feel dun because of tis den take pity or try to do things tat let me forget u .. i noe i must but i want to do it willingly nt by force .. i still feel jealous when u talk to .... but yea i cant do anything n say anything to stop u because its unfair fer u .. although i still hope another chance like i have been hoping i think if we are better of being friends then lets just be friends bah best friends if u even wan ... hope you'll still share ur thoughts with me bah ~ idk wad to blog ler ... i will continue counting th days .. i wish every 22th of th month we can meet up if u dun mind but if u minid den plz tell me thx~

still hurting =x

2009-06-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

17th day without her ... hmm went out with her ytd too have lunch .. hais idk wad to say about her lols onli wanna eat 1 meal a day just because she wanna lose weight!! lols although she did lose abit a weight but knowing her having a weak stomach she still do tis really hurts me ... hais i cant convince her nt to eat onli 1 meal .. she just dun listen .. nvms bah ... den ltr send her home .. called joanne n daryl because joanne said she wanna go out .. head home till 6.30 den went out ... meet them at hougang plaza n headed to th lan to l4d n Cs awhile lols was smsing her though =x shes dam lazy!! lols always complain gt tution! lols but yea i noe holiday nth to ask th teacher dunno wads th tution fer uh hahas =x hmm reached home around 11 cause eat dinner with them as well =] reached home sms her den mapled till 2+ >< i noe its veri late! lols i will slp early de! =D ... hmm now getting used to life without her still ... sometimes reading her blog n looking at her pic's just makes me miss th times me n her had tgt .. but yea i noe i can onli hope time can show me whether thr is still hope fer me n her .. my heart still stings when i see her being close th other guys lols .. i noe i get jealous veri easily lols i also dunno y >< but yea i noe shes nt mine anymore .. so i cant do anything lols =] now i onli can do is be close frens with her bah ? lols was happy she ask me fer opinions though ahhas =x hw silly right? lols anw had fun ytd hahas =] n yes ur just a silly girl with a silly face carrying a silly smile

guess i have letten go of u ><

2009-06-10T02:23:00.000+08:00

14th day w/o her .. sry didnt blog fer 5 days =( was quite busy in sch n chionging maple .. die ler getting addicted =( .. must resist computer soon n start chionging studies! lols >< study camp is finally over lols hmm in tis 5 days i chionged my maple acc to lvl 69 =x tats fer maple .. i cut my hair ( BANGS ) lols which changed my whole look ... my fren say i look cute =-= CUTE!! wth =-= so nt me lols ... n i scored 14/20 fer my chem test! WOHO! =] at least i didnt lie to my mum tat i would get b3 fer every test i take =x lols >< hahas ... hmm anw misunderstood her on th 8 .. tot she had a normal argue n fight with her mum because she use th com too long .. end up she told me she broke down .. she told her mum everything about her dad.. n her slashes >< sry baby fer misunderstanding u .. i tot is because of th com again u n ur mum argued n fight >< .. if u feel sad plz call or at least sms me to let me noe >< so i can humor u ... i dun wan to see u go mad ... i dun wan to see u sad ... baby i want u too always stay happy n i will try my best to bring out ur smile >< n no its nt a fake smile i want but a real n precious smile from u ... hais really dunno wad to do with her mum ... i feel like just giving her mum a tight slap waking her mum up n see~ing how much her daughter really is hurt n askin her hw much more does she want to hurt her daughter until she goes mad or just move away from her .. her mum is just a bloody sexist ... onli care fer her bro n nt fer her ... hais i really wish i can do something .. anw sry i so long never blog again >< i tml will blog de dun worry! =D lols ... p.s baby plz cheer up n stay happy i noe u didnt slash but plz DUN BITE URSELF DUN GO DO THINGS TAT HURT UR OWN BODY ... anything just sms or call me although u have ppl's tat care about u ler ...

suddenly my life feels so quiet

2009-06-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

hmm 10th day w/o her ler .. sry ytd didnt post so today den post lols >< re-created maple acc den created a new mage lols .. i noe i am bo liao .. but its th onli thing tat can keep me occupied with th days tat shes nt with me anymore ... the day b4 yesterday someone called me n tell me tat baby's nt gonna wait fer me like hw she waited her jian sheng like tat .. although i felt hurt by those words but i promise baby i will give up so i pretended nt caring .. den th caller went on by saying baby's fallen in love with andy .. yea i admit i can see tat .. but its her life i am nt inside anymore i onli can hope tat andy would treat her well n pamper her like a princess she is .. but wad really bothers was when caller said tat baby once said i was dam hong .. hong until 1mth can hong 10 girls ... but i dun think baby would say tat ... so i clarified with her today .. n ya she did say something like tat but its nt tat .. she onli said i can let go of a relationship veri easily i can move on fast ... but baby i dun think tis time i can anymore .. i am stuck .. i dun feel like getting out .. because my heart is still with u .. u didnt return it back to me ... u just placed it somewhere deep n accepted another i guess ... wish u last long with andy bah i noe soon or later u will start to fall for him de trust me =] lols ... is me who handed u too him 2 handedly lols although i regret now but its too late so i'll just accpet de fact tat i made th mistake of letting u go .. k i dunno wad to blog ler .. maybe later afternoon den blog or else is tml bah ~ i will continue counting th days w/o u because i still want to start afresh with u ..

GG-fied stucked at home

2009-06-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

9th day w/o her ... today passed her de elmo i caught at cineleisure hahas .. maybe de last present i would give her ler ... hais today veri suay .. acc tio ban gg-fied $300 gone ~ lucky agree~ed to pass me $200 or else i sure die >< .. life still feels empty without her but ya i agree~ed to let her free because someone once told me .. loving someone u must set them free .. let them choose who they really love ... n if shes mine she will come back to me once again .... so for now me n her are just friends .. idk if we can still be close friends but at least friends ... hais feel like giving up my life sometimes but i wont .. still hopes tat 1 day u would return to me bah ... anw saw her today ... she looks like she has nt enuff slp >< but lucky she didnt perm her hair =x lols because i dun think she will look nice with perm~ed hair =x ... but still i wont mind hahas because she looks dam beautiful to me in anyway =] i love her still~ .. blog tml =D bb

its really over .. nth more i can do ...

2009-06-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

8th day w/o her ... really veri moody now ... feel like getting drunk although i wan to keep my promise of nt drinking ... received a sms from her asking me to give up ... n she has told me she has give up .. but why cant i .. i really dk y i cant just let u go ... baby i just love to deeply ... hais but i guess th onlli thing to do now is to let u go .. to set u free .. bye baby .. i hope u live ur life happily everyday ... guess we're nt goin den ..

i really missed her ><

2009-06-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

7th day w/o her ... sry ytd didnt continue ( too tired ) lols... today spent th whole day doin nth ... waiting fer her sms to say tat shes back.. woke up at 12+ .. really becoming pig ler lols ><><><><|| still missing her though always have been hahas >< ( opps ) anw ytd had alot of fun ... decided to ask her out tis week idk how but ya .. i think i ask here bah cause i noe she will be reading it ... erm baby will u go out with me tis week ? any day if ur free .. but if u cant or dun feel like goin i am fine with it really =D because there's always next time marh haahs .. ytd during chinese O's i learned something from th passage ... always be optimistic because happy is always better den sad ... so ya i am trying it out hahas anw i learn alot ytd ><><><>< ... i really hope we still have a chance tgt >< .. ok lets nt talk about tat bah hmm she reached sg at 7.54pm today ><><><>< hmm nvms bah ~ ok lets hope she go out with me one ob tis days ! =D o ya thanks fer protecting her !( fer th person on top ) =D

chinese O's today

2009-06-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

6th day w/o her ... woke up today at 6.57 ... went to shower n prepare to go to sch =] went out ob the house around 7.10 .. while walking to th bus stop had th thought of telling her i goin to sch n have exam soon ... so sms~ed her although she cant receive ... exams was crap but i tried my best though .. i didnt sleep in a chinese exam fer th first time today woho!! after th exam me rey n haui ping went to pizza hut to eat with her fren n her sis =] have loads of laughter ... den later they say wanted to go out so yea went home to prepare but on th bus i suddenly wanted to tell her my exam was over n didnt slp fer th test but i scared i cant make th c5 i promised >< .. anw now at egames blogging ... promised to blog everyday tats why =D com's goin to off soon so must stop here ler >< hmm reach home den edit more bah bb ... 1 more day den she come back ... really miss her alot .. nvms must ren! hahas =p

she goin back to malaysia

2009-05-31T13:09:00.000+08:00

5th day without her ... ytd sms her cause my house near-by didnt have cash to sell .. needed 12k but she onli left 10 so its okay .. thanks fer trying anw =D .. she told me she tml was returning back to malaysia .. i felt dam sad ur goin further n further away from me .. hais although its just fer 2days but it felt like ur gone fer a few months .. baby thanks fer giving th me th chance to accompany u on th phone fer th last time when u are goin back to malaysia although i requested it but u gt a chance to reject but u didnt .. thx i noe its silly n i noe u are asking why am i still holding on .. i can tell u because i still love u .. anw woke up at 10.45 today received 2 msg from her 1 at 9.45 saying i can call her now but i didnt feel th vibration until th 2nd one which was at 10.43 saying goodluck peepo's fer ur O's i was like OMG dun tell me u go back ler dun tell me i even lost th chance of talking to u fer th last time b4 u go back .. i quickly sms~ed her asking where is she maybe i gt a chance to talk to her when shes in th car but thank god she replied she's goin down to eat with her parents .. my heart was relief~ed .. i am sry i didnt appreciate th last time u went back to malaysia i didnt noe tat u will miss me so much until now when i feel th pain too .. th feeling of losing someone u love fer just onli a few days baby i really wish i could sms u everyday when ur back in malaysia but i cant because u once told me tat ur area dun have connection i really feel like being back just right beside u n accompany u talking fer hours doin nth i really feel like doin tat .. baby i really hope ur right when u say if we're meant to be we will get back today .. i will be waiting fer tat day to come .. but fer now i can onli protect u with all i can .. i wont let anything hurt u or anyone to bully u ... baby have a save trip back to malaysia .. oh god plz keep her save during th period of time shes gone .. keep her save at all cost n plz lead her back to me when th time is right .. baby i miss u alot~ n i love u deeply i am sry i wont let u go .. i really hope i can hold back ur hand n kiss back ur lips .. i really miss tat ... take care my love .. waiting fer ur return <3

i guess it's really over

2009-05-30T14:58:00.001+08:00

sms~ed her ytd night .. didnt noe wad i was trying to do .. maybe all i wanted is her to come back .. but i think i went to fast ended up giving too much pressure on her .. i'm sry .. i guess i will do th onli thing left .. which is listen to her n give up .. i'll try .. i will .. although i dun wish too but i will .. th feeling of losing her is still thr .. but i will try to get it away ... soon i hope ... here to wish u a save trip back to malaysia .. hope b4 u go back u would sms me .. but if u dun i will understand ... today wake up at 12 .. totally cant slp last night .. but its okay .. getting used to it .. can someone tell me to stop blogging because everytime turn on tis blog tears just flow memories just come .. idk why .. but i dun wan to stop .. i rather be like tis .. hais nvms .. like wad she said we'll nt forget each other but we'll just stop remembering .. day 3 without her ... i will blog every single day ..

was it a right or wrong choice to let u go ...

2009-05-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

hais since th day i let u go i regretted ... baby i still love u .. i am nt digging th same old hole n jumping into it again .. i wanna dig a new hole with u .. i wan to start afresh with u .. since u told me u would change .. then y not.. i'll give u time? i really cant forget about u .. th bits n pieces of th puzzles in my heart still are in thr .. it will never go away .. because baby i want u back ... i really dunno y we didnt cherish each other after th first patch ... but baby i hope to start afresh with u .. a new date .. a new beginning .. i wont once again hurt myself .. since u still call me baby does it just mean u call just because u got too used to it? or in ur heart there's still me? .. because defintely in my heart there's still u .. i just wont let u go .. idk why .. although u say u hurt me although i feel bits n piece of glasses pierc~ing through me so what? i know sometimes i will mind sometimes i will no mood when u do things tat i dun like ... but in th end of th day u still try to cheer me up ... u try all ur best to try to wanna know whats wrong .. maybe i just dunno how to explain to u in a nice way .. but baby i didnt mean to hurt u ... i noe sometimes i put things in a wrong format which make me sound like i just dun care or i am just rubbing things in .. like just now i sms u saying u cry finish already anot ... i just wanted to say are u feeling better .. but i didnt noe hw to say it in a proper way until i thought of it ... baby since th first day i am with u .. i felt wad is love .. i felt wad is pain .. i felt wad is real happiness .. with u baby i felt almost every feeling i ever can feel .. i dun mind feeling pain because i noe at th end of th day u will be thr to cheer me up .. i noe u tried ... i noe tat we do things diffrently i noe tat.. but since u are willing to change n i am also willing to change why cant we change tgt as one? if we do tat it wont be like last time .. i dun mind us nt goin out .. i dun mind us nt even holding hands when i send u home .. i just mind tat ur gone forever from my life ... baby plz come back too me once u rest finish .. idk why i let u go at th first place but i really regretted it ... i am so nt used to life w/o u ... baby plz come back after u rest finish .. imissyou ..

2th day without u

2009-05-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

ok gonna blog fer 1 week den bye bye blog ...
hmm hw should i start ... getting use to day w/o her .. today woke up at 8.10 OMG gonna be late fer PTC end up chey my mother haven even wake up yet end up i was on time =D reached at 8.30
but my stupid mum make me wait 1hour =-= nvms bah ... anw saw her today .. maybe tis is th last time i will be see~ing her till end of th holiday ... good thing barh? give me time to forget about us? hais now watever i do also will think of her ... idk why i still go think of her ... even after she can tell me she cant decide over me n an online guy .. hais nvms ... anyway heard her laughter today .. maybe she has gotten over it ler bah .. which is good .. hope she will continue with her life happily bah .. heard from nelia tat she felt dam restless on thursday .... hope she will cheer up bah .. i am sry i made a selfish decision of leaving u .. but i rather leave it this way then next time u will regret nt being together with th person u really love .. ur msn writes i still miss u D= but is it as a friend or wad.. anw it doesn't matter now .. after we brk n patch i tot we will learn to cherish each other but in th end ... i am sry i choose to ask for patch ending up hurting both of us again .. i am learning to forget hope u are 2 ... i am sry ..

edited : after reading her blog i suddenly felt like forgiving her .. felt like talking back to her .. i really dunno wad to do .. should i give her 1 more chance .. should i give us 1 more chance 1 final chance .. hope tat she change? so tat we can be tgt again? i still love her .. i am nt afraid to tell everyone tat .. but everytime she just does things tat make me dun wan to love her anymore .. but still in th end ob th day i cant stop loving her .. my heart is still filled with her .. hais .. idk wad to do .. if i say i still love u and i want a new beginning will u change n start afresh with me?

its all over

2009-05-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

ytd 11pm++ i decided to tell her everything .. hw i feel fer th past 3mths .. n i decided to break up with her because she cant even decide over a bf she is with fer 3mth 4days then a audi online guy which she didnt meet b4 .. WTF RIGHT .. hais nvms its over ... hope u will be happy with andy bah ....

i wont talk to u after today ler ... hope u take care of urself bah ... sry i cant be th permanent caller when u go back to malaysia ... hope u find 1 better 1 tat can take care of u .. bye bye~ i will delete tis blog after 1 week ...

happy anniversary

2009-05-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

woo~ first time failing english ... today its our 3rd month n tis happened~

hm hw to start ..
ok i noe ler .. we argued . i failed ALL MY SUBJECTS . hmm we didnt go out . ya best thing my first time failing english .... ok lets start ..
today wake up sms bi telling her i am sry tat i didnt wake up at 12 to wish her .. was gald she didnt get angry so went sch as per normal .. th day was still okay till th last period .. when i gt back my english paper .. woho i failed .. nvms i told baby about it n told her i was sad .. she ask me cheer up .. i smiled but i told her i have no mood .. baby i have no mood doesn't mean i dun wan to go out with u .. i sms~ed u saying i wait fer u at th canteen u faster come down ? who noe's u tell me U GOIN HOME .. MUM CALLED .. U NOE HW FUCKED UP I FEEL AT TAT POINT OF TIME ANOT .. I NEEDED TO U N U TOLD ME U GOIN HOME ... WORST THING TODAY IS OUR ANNI N U RATHER GO HOME TO AUDI ... WAD MORE DO U WAN ME TO SAY ... baby asked me to cool down i tried n i did but when bi keep saying she dunno wad to say i was really pissed off .. i am really disappointed in u bi.. whenever u feel sad i am there fer u i will try my best to be with u ... BUT HOW ABOUT U .. today is a perfect example .. u choose to go home then to be with me n even try to cheer me up .. u said i scolded u n broke my promises but wad about u .. u told me u would try to go out today .. but 2 words is all u gave me MUM CALLED .. what happen to trying? i already told u nt to come on 22nd u said u wanted to so ok .. end up u make me happy fer nth .. u always give me high hopes n up bringing it down .. i really dunno wad to say ler ... n worst part of all u start blaming urself which makes me more angry .. i told u before never to blame urself when things happen ... end up u still did ... wad more do u wan me to reply so i blasted at u ... its my fault for doing tat but really baby tell me 1 thing when i saidto u happy audi~ing .. are u nt gonna audi today .. if yes den its my fault if no den think about it wad i said .. i no mood i didnt wan u to no mood so i asked to happy audi~ing .. baby u tell me out ob 10 times u reach home hw many times u didnt turn on th com n audi if u are allowed or even NOT allowed too .. ask ursel tis ... i really nth to say lah .. ''THX'' FER BEING THR FER ME WHEN I NEED YOU ... REALLY ''THX'' ...

imy~

2009-05-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

nth to do so come blog ~ just finish watching sky ob love ... let baby say right about something make me so ps =x .. th show was quite nice veri touching =] ...
hmm today normal lessons =x dunno go sch fer wad so sianz tml marking day .. no sch ! =D but baby goin out tml =-= sianz! ~ miss baby so much after watching th show dunno y lols .. bi u always tell me ur fortunate .. now i noe y =x n bi i feel fortunate as well .. to have bi with me <3 bi i love u forever .. i wont ever leave u or even throw u aside .. not even for awhile =x muacks bi
dunno wad to blog about ler today is a short day bah nth happen so ya ... anw bi good luck with th love party with andy jy!

baby ur th best ~

2009-05-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

back to blogging~

hmm spent th whole day with baby on thursday =] left sch early lols den accompany baby to hougang mall to walk walk lols didnt noe wad to do thr so sugguested baby to come my house cause she say she never come b4 lols ... anw while walking to my house baby was scared because my house gt my grandfather =x baby shy >< ss ="x" house ="D" park ="D" 11 ="x">.< !! but still time cant stop everything has to continue moving so left her house around 11+ den reached home at 12 =x slept dam well tat day xD due to certain reasons =x hahas .. friday was alright =x fetched baby home bought her mac =x hahas hmm tat was about it ler bah =x sat went friends birthday party didnt drink =x cause promise baby i wont drink ... but in th afternoon went to pass baby pasta salad cause she say she wan eat .. first time making something fer my stead!! lols glad tat baby liked it but sad didnt spend alot of time with her .. den it reached today ... today gt woken up by baby lols but i dun mind xd <3 up ="x" 30 ="-=" style="font-weight: bold;">again till around 7+ den call her up chat with her awhile till 7.30 bi ask me go slp cause i sounded tired .. so off to slp =x till around 8.20? i woke up den go shower bi keep calling i didnt noe till 8.43 when i picked up her call =x she sounded angry as i didnt pick up her call bah .. i can feel she thinks tat i lie to her tat i didnt slp =x but she just kept quiet in th end we just found something to talk about till baby reached home as she cant talk on th phone ler =( now blogging missing her so much =x anyway after tis i goin to watch sky ob love lols promised baby <3

bi thx fer editing my blog .. tis few days u have been clinging to me .. i like it i really do ... i hope we can be like tis throughout our relationship tgt or even better? bi i am giving my best n everything to u n i noe ur also doin so ... bi i once promised u 2 things .. 1) i will never leave u
2) i will still love u even if u leave me ... bi tis 2 promise will never be broken unless i die .. so bi dun be afraid i will one day leave u because i wont <3
ineedyou iwantyou imissyou iloveyou muacks bi

ur hubby - J.CZX
my wifey - N.CYM

♥ baby .

2009-05-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

booooooooos ~
babyyyyyyyy , <3
alrights , changes "blog skin"
baby like ? =x roars .
anwanw , idkkk what to write but baby , ily :D
dhun mind me come here crappp uhsss =x wahahahahhahaa .
alrights uhss , dam tired nerhhs T.T
i want go orhhorhh zZz liaos . baby, sleep early horhs .
P.S : for yoor girlf's sake, pleaseee eat, drink & sleep more.
sick must takecareee uhsss , *mwahs.mwahs*
*kiss baby's forehead* (goodnight kiss) xD

` i love my boyf, J.CZX ♥

-x girlf, ♥cianyuh.

idk wad to say~

2009-05-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

back tu blogging ... hmm days passed veri fast tis mth =x so fast jiu 11-may liao ... 11 more days till 3rd month lols... everythings getting better bah baby tis few days keep sticking to me lols normally i would hate it but dunno y fer her i like it alot =x lols i totally dun mind her sticking to me lols .. weird but ok ... went back playing audi lols stupid rain hai wo cpl 2 times on th same day =-= actually already found 1 cpl den later 3 games she log in pm me ask me be her cpl =-= den i consider fer veri long since shes my long time fren so okay lah ~ lols cpl with her lor anw she gt bf i gt gf =] baby dun nid worry i will like her de lah xd den baby gt married today n she lvl~ed up congratz bah .. heart stings alittle bah still ok lah i trust her lols .. hope she n her cpl last long bah n nt brk her heart cuase she is dam into audi de =-= ... ytd night pei baby talk till 1:57 den later she sms me at 2:01 saying her mum came out cant chat ler so yea but i didnt see th msg till around 2:10 so yea tats when i hang LOL! stupid right me =x ... anw yea talked to baby quite alot still made her cry fer like 10mins? cuase i said something tat hurt her n made her feel i dun trust her =x SRY BABY! i will always trust u lah <3>< cause she didnt work hard de her mum is dam ... de so yea nvms bah stay at home talk to her lor ( i guess ) but good fer her bah she get to audi audi n audi more.. time fer a personal thought ...
today was fucked up in th afternoon ... knowing at baby marry today was abit hurting but yea should have expected it ... suddenly have th feeling at i am sharing my baby with someone else but yea i noe its nt true bah =] den later after awhile cool down thought about it ler den pm baby .. she came n play with me awhile but at 6 she went of cause she wanna tag with her cpl so yea .. she promised me to stop at 7 actually didnt beleive her but she proved me wrong ... was happy bah lols den now she called while i blog ... ok i dun wan blog ler want to talk to her =]
ok the weird~iest thing just happen baby noe my audi cpl real life n my audi cpl dunno her =-= wth confused @.@

quiz~

2009-05-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

. Real name : Jeremy Chee Zhen Xing
2. Nickname : Jer
3. Star sign : Leo/Virgo ( half half ) =-= 23rd aug wad lols
4. Male or female : Male
5. Primary school : Xinmin
6. Secondary school : Yuying sec
7. JC/POLY : Aim~ing poly =D
8. Hair color : Black n Brown
9. Long or short : err semi~long
10 . Loud or Quiet : none
11. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
12. Phone or camera : Phone
13. Health freak : No?
14 . Drink or smoke : none ( baby dun like )
15 . Do you have a crush on someone : No?
16 .Eat or drink : BOTH
17 . Piercings : 2
18 . Tattoos : No?
Have You Ever ;
19. Been in an airplane : yes
20 . Been in a relationship : yes
21 . Been in a car accident : no
22 . Been in a fist fight : no?
23. First piercing : sec 3
24 . First best friend : Reynoldz
25. First award : 100metre dash
26. First Crush : p3
27 . First Vacation : forgot
Lasts;
28 . Last person you talked to : my baby?
29 . Last person you texted to : joanne
30 . Last person(s) you watched a movie with : joanne , reynold , kuang
31. Last food you ate : school food
32 . Last movie you watched : X-men origins
33 . Last song you listened to : Soulja Boy Feat Sammie - Kiss Me Thru The Phone
34 . Last thing you bought : consession pass
35 . Last person you hugged : my baby?
Favourites ;
36 . Food : none
37. Drinks : pokka green tea =]
38 . Clothing : anything tat i like
39 . Books : err so far none
40. Song : too much to type out
41 . Flower : i nt gay
42 . Colors : black
43 . Movies : fer tis yr? X-men origins
44 . Phrase : idk?
45 . Subjects : English , maths =]
Had you ever done before ;
46 . Kissed in the snow : No
47 . Celebrated Halloween : Never
48. Had your heart broken : yes
49 . Went over the minutes on your cell phone : alot of times?
50. Someone questioned your sexual orientation : err yes ( true or dare =-= )
51 : Came out of the closest : no?
52 . Gotten pregnant : i am a guy =-=
53 . Had an abortion : i am a guy cant get pregnant hw to get a abortion?
54 . Done something you've regretted : yes
55 . Broke a promise : yes
56 . Hid a secret : yes
57 . Pretended to be happy : yes
58 . met someone who changed your life : my baby?
59 . Pretended to be sick : when i dun wan go sch
60. Left the country : yes
61. Tried something your normally wouldn't try & liked it : yes
62 . Cried over the silliest thing : idk whether is silly anot
63 . Ran a mile : yes
64 . Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : yes
65 . Stay single the whole year : yes
Currently;
66 .Eating : eaten
67. Drinking : water
68. I'm about ton : tml exam cant ton
69 . Listening to : music
70 . Plans for tomorrow : go sch take ss exam
71 . Waiting for : my baby to go home?
Your Future ;
72 . Want kids : err see baby wan anot lor =x
73. Want to get married : idk whether my baby wan to marry me anot lols
74 . Careers in mind : haven thought about it
Which do u prefer ;
75 . games or girls : girls
76. Shorter or taller : not so tall not so short
77 . Romantic or spontaneous : both bah?
78 . Nice stomach or nice arms : idk?
79 . Sensitive or loud : sensitive bah
80 . Hook-up or relationship : relationship
81. Trouble-maker or hesistant : none
Have you ever :
82. Lost glasses/ contacts : no
83. Ran away from home : yes
84. Hold a gun or knife for self defense : no
85 . Killed somebody : no unless i go mad den maybe
86 . Broken someone's heart : yes
89 . yourself : huh?
90. Miracles : yes bah
91 . Love at first sight : err maybe idk
92 . Heaven : er yes
93 . Santa Claus : no such person
94 . Sex on the first date : no
95 . Kiss on the first date : yes
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now : my baby?
97 . Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : err regretted nt studying well bt still ok
98 . This is the 98th & last question : lawl finally?
Now tag 10 people to do this : i lazy to tag ppl to do it if they wan they will go do =-=

do things w/o regret =D

2009-05-06T20:46:00.000+08:00

today actually didnt wanted to go sch de cause raining dam heavily + veri tired but baby told me she performing today so ended up picking up myself from th bed n went to prepare fer sch ^^ luckly when i left my house th rain STOPPED ! woho! hahas so didnt get wet =] msged baby on th way to sch =] but suddenly just stopped so nvms bah ... day as per normal reach sch take tempreture den 2 free periods hahas crapped fer 1 1/2 hours LOL! baby asked angelo to pass me GREEN TEA xD wee~ THX BABY ! =p hmm den lesson lesson crap crap ... during chinese library wasn't open =( so walked around den later heard they say sec 4 n 5 dun nid go hall fer assembly our class all sian diao!! LOL!! first time hear whole class say wan go assembly hahas !! when assembly time we stayed in class fer like 10mins den a busybody teacher come n nag we scold her n ask to go away but in th end she did something good fer us xD she asked us go down hall watch th performance =D whole class cheered! hahas cute sia we =x anw watched baby perform xD can see she dam nervous cause she saw someone .. =p anw assembly flew past dam fast den it was HOME! but didnt went home hahas .. while goin down th stairs .. saw baby so talked to her awhile .. she said she was goin home with cherylene ''they'' all so i can assume tat she n cherylene got back tgt ler bah as she didnt nid me to send her home lols .. so end up headed to PIZZA HUT ( again ) with rey n joanne tis time hahas .. reached thr at 4 our target to stay thr until 7 n we did it ! woho! hahas ate 2 pasta 1 bake rice n 12 drumlets n 1 plate of crossed ''fries'' lols total up 2 about $33.30 hahas 333 =x lols anw we crapped n talked while eatting =D had alot of fun n laughter hahas we keep saying tat the service sucks n we shouldn't have to pay fer th GST hahas ! anw have been hanging out with joanne n reynold fer th past 2~3 weeks? hahas went to watch 2 movies fer consecutive weeks =] hahas watching th 3rd one tis coming sat ( if gt show watch haahs ) den ltr goin fer STEAMBOAT with sarah they all hahas =] wee so fun =p anw nth to blog ler bah baby still audi~ing o ya reached home around 8.15 today =x so tired lols k lah nth to blog ler fer today ler bah .. nth much happen between us its still up n down i guess =x stay tune bah i noe ur th onli wan see~ing my blog hahas muacks baby i love u

time flies ~ but do u ?

2009-05-04T19:54:00.000+08:00

many things happen th past few days... hmm whr do i begin lols ... err baby still as addicted to audi as ever hahas hmm she gt heart broken 3 times but ending up still cpl~ing with 1 of her ex .. she had a crush on a person who treated her like crap after breaking up with her in audi w/o saying anything ... hmm almost argue with her everyday n didnt feel like talking to her? felt alone n fucked up... but everythings over ler bah after ytd's thing didnt noe y i thought tat me n her was over but while i was thinking about tat.... baby msg me saying tis '' Sorry dear , i'm sorry dhat because ob other stuff , i keep say i want break with y0o . <3 duibuqi . Now i want y0o . ^^ is it too late ? '' after tis msg i straight away stopped whatever stuff i was thinking n kept wondering about stuff like now den u want me? or i should forgive u since u noe ur mistake ... but in th end i choose to let everything go n let us start over again because i dun wan to lose u like all th other girls i choose to let go or even hurt them .. i dun wan to do anything to hurt u n just want u to have th best i noe ur family isn't the ideal family u have in ur mind neither is ur friends .. but since i am ur bf i wanna at least make u happy when ur with me n nt putting up a fake smile fer me ... baby we are talking lesser n lesser to each other maybe is a good thing cause like tat we wont go out ob subject to talk about but we dun even sms which scares me because we can even go to th extend ob nt even talking to each other fer th whole day lols ... yes i admit i miss u but do u ? i noe i should put more trust on u but i am afraid ... i tried i really did but i really dunno y i cant =( but i am changing i am putting in more trust in u i wont doubt u ever again i once doubt ur love fer me but now i wont =] plz dun make me regret my decision anw i dunno wad to say ler just finished tution veri tired maybe continue tml or another day bah =] i still love u whole heartedly no matter wad i promise tat my heart wont change if urs wont 2

i learnt nt to be so nice~

2009-05-01T12:44:00.000+08:00

sry didnt blog tis few days =( alot of things happen i guess my mid yr exams have arrived !! n me n her is still goin up n down ... hmmm hw to start .. okay lets start with hw i feel fer th past few weeks .. i felt like crap =-= baby i think i noe y i wanted a break but i didnt bear to break with u ... th reason i wanted to break is because sometimes i really think we're more like best friends instead of a couple as u just nid a person to be thr fer u anywhere anytime to be ur listening hear i dun mind being person with u but when u tell me u love me i really dun feel th love ..baby u ever wondered y as a stead i would let u just play th com th whole day or watch tv n i didnt wish to talk to u ... its because i dun wanna disturb u in anyway i just hope u will noe i will be waiting fer ur call or sms so we can just chat but in th end ur call always comes around 9.30~9.45 which is like onli 30~15mins ob time fer us to talk n u expect me to talk .. fer th past few weeks has always been like tat ... i really hate it but i just dun wanna tell u i dun wanna hurt ur heart no more ... u always noe sometimes its ur fault but i just pamper u by saying no lah its nt ur fault just to let u feel good but dun u noe i am hurting inside who would onli wan to talk to his/her stead fer 30~15mins everyday ... although we meet everyday we seldom talk ... baby is either u changed or my expectation is too high i really dun noe ... th 1st mth we are tgt u keep bugging me to talk to u on th phone i was veri happy but 2nd mth u changed we onli had 30mins of time to talk everyday n in th 30mins we always have ur mum screaming like fuck like tat or else is i hear sms from ur phone or else is ur still watching tv n something funny when u call me like in th middle of th day i didnt pick up den 5mins later i call back thinking tat u wanna talk to me end up either we talk fer 5mins n u tell me u gt something to do or else is baby i call u back later i gt something to do ... if u gt something to do plz dun fucking call me =-= u call a person because u wanna talk to th person nt tell th person straight in th face u gt something to do n u call th person back later .... baby i really dunno wad to say ler lah maybe is because i pamper u so much n dun wanna hurt so i rather hurt myself ... guess now th onli thing to do is just dun care so much bah let nature takes its course i wont pamper u so much anymore i wont lie to myself jsut to make u happy tats wad my frens n me also agree to do it if u dun like it u may do whatever u wan to do i am prepared fer it but if u love me i think u would noe y i will do tis things ... anyway now u wan play ur game watch ur tv i also dun care ler go ahead bah just make sure u dun regret i dun call u n chat can ler n if u wanna talk to me make sure u nt doin anything else or else it would really spoil my mood ... bottom line i still love u but if u push me to th corner too much i wont give face to u ...

chapter 3

2009-04-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

ytd was like any other day but expect is our 2nd month anni .. didnt do much with her in fact didnt go meet her at all after school .. actually we were suppose to go eat lunch tgt but she have maths remedial fer th last min so didnt went .. actually i already asked her out tat night but went she told me she went fer cca n had a test tml i didnt want to go look fer her already .. as i noe she will be veri tired + she needs all th time to revise so in the end just accomapanied her on th phone tats all =]

today woke up abit late as was lazy in bed ... so didnt sms baby n just went straight to shower after coming out of th shower i saw her sms so started to sms tgt ... left my house around 6.55 bussed down to school while sms~ing baby till around 7.10 den she suddenly stopped so yea didnt really cared as i noe shes busy bah ... sch started blah blah blah nth really much happen after sch still gt chem until 5 n stayed in sch to play with my friends awhile while waiting fer my baby .... guitar ended around 7.20 today ... was happy tat baby ask me to send her home .. after sending her home i bussed back home .. was quite emo have no idea y but th bus came quite slow today .. waited fer around 10mins =( anw reached home around 8.10 showered a hot bath n came to blog =] hahas hmm nth much to say ler bah maybe will mia awhile bah... was thinking of it fer a few days ler but i cant think of a reason to just leave baby alone ... so didnt go mia .. anw quite happy can last fer 2mths with her ... maybe we still have a long time to go or maybe not but i hope we do bah =] baby i still love u till th veri end although i hear alot ob bad comments from alot of ppl but still i really dun care as ur still in my heart deeply i love u muacks baby i wanna last long with u <3

getting better~

2009-04-21T22:14:00.001+08:00

everything's getting better already i guess... but still time will tell more bah =] hmmm waked up at 6 today wonder y lols th weather was raining n yet i didnt noe i just wanted to wake up today ... msg~ed baby while i am still on my bed den drag until 6.30 den went to take my pe attire n go shower =D hahas hot bath woho!! left my house around 6.52 den bussed to sch ... awhile on th way to sch joanne n baby msg~ed me baby was on her way to sch fer guitar practice .. n joanne told me tat she wasn't feeling well today lucky fer her i brought my jacket along lols ... get to sleep n walk around th sch fer th 1st 2 period because its mother tongue baby keep complaing sian but cant do anything >< den later english bored to death after tat recess woho!! hahas baby msg~ed me said tat she is smelly n sticky n wants to shower lols n again i cant do anything but just msg her to keep her company asked her weather wan me to lend her deodorant she decline so yea ... den during recess joanne came to look fer me n took my jacket away actually dun wan give her de but she took my phone as hostage so no chioce hahas den later was just plain lessons den PE! played doubles with ricky againist madm wong + 1 of her class student .. n guess wad we own~ed them hahas!! den sch ended i was suppose to meet joanne to take back my jacket at art rm but i forgot ahahahs den later she came stomping in th hall LOL!! but lucky shes nt angry lah hahas played badminton with her fer awhile den later went down to rest .. was sweating like i just came out of th shower sia .. lols den baby told she goin home n nt goin fer guitar was abit disappointed but its her chioce bah wad can i do? hahas den accompanied baby to sms den later went down to albert to have my hair cut ... after tat meet bronson to eat mac hahas den joanne told me she n her stead was at nyny hahas actually wan go disturb but den think about it dun wan be lamp post so didnt went hahas =] msged dear while goin home but she was audi~ing so didnt wan to disturb her .. reached home accompanied baby to audi awhile but felt tired in th end den went to slp .. around 7+ 8 i msged dear told her i wake up ler den she told me she wanna lvl her audi den just nice my dota trainin start so we just continued doin our own things my matched end ler n just nice baby msg~ed me so i called her n we chatted awhile fer till 10? she kept bugging me to blog wonder y hahas anw was happy tat we are improving n today we didnt argue fer along time we didnt have tis ler i hope we wont argue anymore or at least nt so often ... anw baby i noe ur goin to read tis so dun get jealous !! my heart will onli be with u de <33 i love u baby muacks kae! =D anw hope our relationship get better =D i am really determine to last with u ! as i promised u marh i will always try to help u solve all ur problems no matter wad <3 muacks TML IS OUR 2nd MTH LER !!! =D WEE~~ i hope we will have th 3rd 4th n 5th n more n more =D i love u lah my dear lao po

confused~

2009-04-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

day 2 ,
ok readers its day 2!!! lols alot of things happened today =] morning waked up at 7.40am , msg~ed dear den went to shower n bused down to sch ... nth much in sch today study study play joke have fun den back to study ... after sch PIZZA HUT!!! woho !! hahas but took dam long den we left de sch reached pizza hut around 5 =( no more student meal so its ok still have smart chioce meal whatever it is hahas =D eat fer 2hours =] total up 3 ppl me reynold n huai ping ate up to $41.31 cheap uh hahas yea really quite cheap ler cause gt 2 pasta 1 pizza 3 drinks n 3 soups!! hahas wee~ ok while eating dear sms me she told me tat she failed her guitar auditions i noe shes working hard but its still nt paying off n her syf is next monday OMG!!!! i noe shes stress but i am more stressed =-= i really wan to accompany her n be with her , talk to her more but she always shuts th door fer us to communicate ... like last sat she spent her whole day with her online GUY fren trying to dl th fucking audition hack WTF right! so talked to her onli like less den 1hour? n last sunday she spent her whole day audi just because she was able to use th hack =-= while audi was in patch she called me n keep complaining to me tat audi sucks everything cause gt patch but when audi is working again she just throws me aside n went back to audi ... i really felt tat as a person i lost my gf to th fucking com so i asked her ... if i am willing th quit dota is she willing to quit audi so tat we can have time fer each other ... but guess wad she reply's she'ill never quit audi so ya maybe i lose my gf because of a stupid game n beleive it or nt she can stress herself just because of audi n cant stress herself because me n her seldom meet seldom go out n we are talking less n less hais i really dun noe wad to do at pizza hut i told huai ping n rey about it they suggusted me to brk up with her as they feel she treat me like fck n angelo even suggusted me to treat her like hw jian sheng treat her just plain ignore her BUT I CANT DO IT! I JUST CANT ... I CANT BEAR TO SEE YOU BEING SAD I CANT BEAR TO SEE YOU CRY AND ITS JUST BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU N I DON'T NOE Y!
whatever it is baby i just love u i have noe idea y i am so in love with u when u can bear to just ignore me jsut because of th com i really don't ... hais whatever it is sry today i let huai ping answer th phone n make u become sad just because u feel tat u nid to ask someone to pass th phone to me just because u wan to talk to ur bf ... but baby have u ever treated me as ur bf i noe u tell me ur personal stuff n problems but den baby we are more like phone stead even though i see u 5days a week but we just dun hang out tgt n we cant even stand tgt in sch n chat more den 5 mins after sch i always ask u to eat tgt with me n yet u reply me u cant either is because of ur frens or u say its guitar i really dun noe which is true or not u are willing to be late fer guitar because of ur frens n u are nt willing to be late fer guitar just to go eat with me when ur hungry i really dunno lah baby ... anw just to let u noe tis is th first time out of th mani steads i have which i onli go out 1 time with her when we are already reaching our 2nd mth anni ... i love u so i just let tis past me but y must u treat me tis way th first mth was fine but after tat our relationship is like goin down i really hope it can improve i really do .... hais hope tml will be a better day bah

1st day ~

2009-04-19T14:08:00.000+08:00

lols dunno y i decided to create a blog ( finally ) .. but yea here i am blogging fer th 1st time today hahas.. anw bored~ nth to do .. felt unhappy about somethings but yea it will pass soon i guess .. my relationship with her is goin up n down tis few days i really dunno wad is she thinking hais ... wonder her com is more impt or i am ... shes always says i am .. but always gives me th feeling tat her com is much more impt ... but is okay bah i should trust her =] ... until now i onli went out with her once n we are tgt fer around 1mth + goin to 2 mths? lols really pathetic right ? but yea is okay lah i love her so must understand her mum n her cca's taking up most of her time but its okay ^^ hope things will get better =] .... i wonder if i give up dota fer u will u give up audi fer me?